Tag: Games Frat Boys Play

Theft, and Wandering Around Lost

Work at home Friday!

Not that I mind going to the office, of course, but I love working at home on Fridays because I don’t have to get up early. Although that hasn’t been much of a problem this week, in all honesty; I’ve not had to force myself out of bed one morning this week, not have I dragged and been tired all morning. I’ve slept well every night this week (probably just jinxed it) which has made a significant difference. I think perhaps my theory yesterday–the release of stress and the absence of anything causing me anxiety because I finally caught up–has probably had a lot to do with why I was able to sleep so deeply and well this week. Now, hopefully this weekend I can start making progress on a deep clean of the apartment, prune out some more books, and perhaps get some other things started. I’ve kept up for those most with the daily shit I always let pile up–laundry, dishes, filing–so I won’t have to spend much time this weekend getting that shit caught up, which is kind of nice; I am not behind going into the weekend.

I really need to do something about the cabinets, to be honest, and perhaps it IS time to reorganize the counters. And maybe we can order our new refrigerator this weekend. One can but dream, I suppose. I slept late this morning, which felt great, but we’re both a little concerned about Scooter. He’s not himself these last few days, and so we are thinking about taking him into the vet to get him checked out. He also hasn’t been howly-bitchy lately, either. He gave me a rather weak attempt at a fill my bowl you cretin this morning, but it was more sad than demanding. He is about fourteen, which I’ve been thinking about lately (sorry, death of loved ones is much on my mind this year, sue me) but I was dreading having to have the conversation about “we may be losing him” this soon. Last night when I got home from work he slept in my lap briefly but then gave up and went to lay on the floor in front of the dryer in the laundry room–he always likes it in there were one of the appliances (whether dishwasher, dryer, or washer) are in operation, I think the vibrations on the floor appeal to him and soothe in some mysterious cat-fashion–but I was doing chores and not paying attention to anything, then realized oh you should play Spotify through the computer and that was when I noticed that I had my iMessages app open on the computer and Paul had texted me around three to call him. I finally did when I saw the text around eight last night, and that was when he told me his concerns about Scooter, which while it saddened me that it wasn’t just my imagination, I was also glad that I didn’t have to be the one to bring it to his attention and talk him through it. He does seem better this morning, but I think we still need to take him to the vet to be checked out. Who knows? It may not be something fatal, but something that medications can clear up. It’s just that he’s so old; we’ve had him for almost thirteen years and they said he was two when we adopted him, which would make him fifteen. He’s such a sweet thing. And no matter how many times I tell myself well if we lose him we can rescue another cat from a grim existence inside a cage , and give him a great life, but that doesn’t help all that much, really.

The trade-off for the great joy a pet can bring you is the sorrow of losing them. On the other hand, I also wouldn’t want to outlive a pet, either; stories about pets whose owners/parents died on them always break my heart. I still mourn Skittle and my childhood dog, Sandy–and Sandy crossed the Rainbow Bridge when I was nineteen, so over forty years ago.

I’m going to try to keep my sadness at bay–Mom always said worrying was just borrowing trouble–and focus so I can be productive today and not get behind on things the way I was before. And work makes for a marvelous way of escaping sorrow, when it isn’t paralyzing.

I did get started last night on the pile of dishes and some laundry last night, which I need to finish this morning, I have work at home duties to do and a couple (how lovely that sounds!) of emails to answer. I want to finish writing some more drafted blog entries that have been there in my drafts forever–or delete them, accepting the fact that I will either never write the entry or it needs to be a longer form personal essay or its no longer topical. Clean the drafts out, Gregalicious! I was also a little pleased with myself for finishing two other draft entries yesterday–one about writing Games Frat Boys Play and one about my story “Solace in a Dying Hour”–the anthology This Fresh Hell, in which it appears, dropped yesterday and you can click on the title link there to order a copy–isn’t it lovely how I try to make things easier for you, Constant Reader?–so I am making progress on that front. At one point I was trying to write entries about each and every one of my books; I got away from that when life got out of my control yet again, and it’s not a bad idea to go back to this stuff. I think I had also stopped with both Need and Timothy on deck; I am going to try to get back on track with that. Hell, the older entries about Scotty and Chanse books might even be on Livejournal, of all places. (Ye olde blog is still up and findable over there; I used to take the entries private after a few months because the blog had been plagiarized a few times; but I think the last year or so are still up.) I’ll have to check to see. But I’ve been keeping Queer and Loathing in America since December of 2004; next year I’ll reach my twentieth anniversary of blogging. (!!!)

I also worked on organizing and cleaning up electronic files, which is much more time-consuming than one might think–as much as I love being organized, that sadly doesn’t carry over to my computer files, the cloud or the back-up hard drive. Ever since I discovered I can do file-searches for when I need one, I allowed it to get completely out of control, which was an enormous mistake that I regret to this day. There’s a lot of treasure in my files somewhere–ideas, thoughts, inspirational images as well as images from history that may be of use at some point with some book or story. The problem is I keep finding more things every day that I think well this will come in handy when I write X and so it goes into the files. I hoard books, paper, and electronic files, apparently.

I also realized yesterday that the new short story collection–which now sits at over seventy-seven thousand words–was missing a published short story, which, when added to the document, will take it over eighty thousand, which to me is the bare minimum for such a collection; so I could actually go ahead and add it in and send the collection off to my publisher to see if they want it or not. I’d want it to be at least ninety thousand, though, so I’d need at least two more completed stories for it out of the files. Something to ponder.

And on that note, I am going to head into the spice mines. Have a lovely Friday, Constant Reader, and I’ll check in with you again probably later.

Games People Play

My second fraternity novel went through two name changes before we found one the publisher liked enough to use–and it was their idea.

It was originally called beautiful, which is what I called it while writing the first draft. Kensington did not like that title, and wanted something that would tie it more to the first fraternity erotica novel I wrote for them. I tweaked the title of the first one and came up with What Every Frat Boy Wants, which isn’t really a bad title at all. But at some point Marketing came up with Games Frat Boys Play–which was not only a better title over all but also fit the story better–I didn’t fight the name change at all. (It rather bothers me that I’ve never been able to come up with a good title for a single one of the Todd Gregory novels, to be honest. I take pride in being good at titles…)

When I was very very young I saw a made for TV movie that I absolutely loved. It was a twisted and funny revenge tale called The Girl Most Likely To, and it was Stockard Channing’s first big break in film or television. She played an unattractive, overweight young woman who was also socially awkward and had no friends; she was lonely and made fun of and picked on her entire life. She spent all of her time studying and as such became extremely smart. But when she went off to college she thought she had friends and she thought she could be happy–only to wind up betrayed and humiliated by everyone publicly. She flees in tears and is in a horrible car wreck, which leaves her in a coma. When she comes out of the coma, it’s been months; they reconstructed her face and not knowing what she looked like, followed her bone structure and made her beautiful; and the liquid diet while in the coma had shed weight off her and now she’s gorgeous…

..and she decides to get even with everyone who fucked her over and humiliated her. Joan Rivers wrote the script, so it was twisted and dark yet funny at the same time; and Channing was amazing–I’ve been a fan ever since. I love me a good revenge story, so when Kensington wanted another fratboy book I decided to go for a revenge story–I love a good revenge story, like I said (the television series Revenge is one of my all time favorites) and I decided to do a The Gay Most Likely To, only making my main character remarkably sweet and innocent and charming; his father is a software millionaire and he spent most of his life at a boarding school in Switzerland where everyone was a snob and was shitty to him for not having a title or being old aristocratic money, and he’s decided he wants to have a normal life at a normal college before going off to Harvard–he’s also incredibly smart–and literally picked CSU-Polk out of the air as his choice. Also looking to explore his sexuality, he moves into a really nice apartment in a great (and expensive) complex, and across the breezeway from him lives Jeff and Blair from Every Frat Boy Wants It, who are the ones who get him to go to the Beta Kappa fraternity rush and…the story was off and running.

Kensington also came up with a fucking smoking hot cover for the book.

This, reflected Police Detective Joe Palladino, is an awfully nice apartment complex for a college student to be living in. How the hell does he afford it?

The Alhambra Apartments, he knew, started at a mere $1500 per month for a studio, and went up—way up—from there. When they’d opened a few years earlier, his then-boyfriend, Sean, had wanted to take a look at them.  Joe had failed to see the point—there was no way they could afford the rents there, even with their combined incomes—but Sean had insisted and it was easier to give in than have an argument. And yes, the place was gorgeous—you had to be let in by security, there were fountains and tennis courts and swimming pools conveniently placed throughout the complex. Each building had a laundry facility, and near the clubhouse was an on-site laundry dry cleaner. There was even a fully equipped workout facility with state of the art equipment that put Joe’s gym to shame. The apartments themselves were large, full of light and luxurious—but after the tour, Sean had pouted all night long because they couldn’t afford to live there, as though it were somehow Joe’s fault. But everything had always been Joe’s fault, which was why he’d dumped Sean shortly after that. There was, after all, only so much complaining that anyone can put up with. Sean wanted everything but didn’t want to work for it—and Joe eventually tired of being compared to Sean’s previous, much older boyfriend and being found wanting. Sean was young and handsome—and so thought everything should be handed to him. He didn’t like having to work, and he didn’t like that Joe’s income wasn’t enough for him to live a life of luxury and idleness while being supported.

“I don’t know what you ever saw in him in the first place,” his older sister Margie had sniffed in her patented condescending way after Sean had left him. “He has about as much depth as a dog dish.”

He’d opened his mouth to answer her but had closed it again. There wasn’t any point in arguing with her because she was right. Sean had always wanted more than Joe could offer him. The three bedroom house in the subdivision on the north side of town hadn’t been enough for him. He always wanted the most expensive things—a car he couldn’t possibly afford, the most expensive clothes and colognes and vacations. Joe had practically bankrupted himself trying to please Sean—but nothing was ever enough. And besides, Margie wouldn’t understand even if he tried to explain how his heart had always swelled up whenever he looked at Sean—or that just touching Sean’s skin had gotten him aroused. It had taken him a while to understand it all himself, but the truth was he’d really loved the way Sean looked, and hoped his love would change Sean somehow.

But, he reflected again, people only change if they want to. And you can’t build a relationship on sex when you have nothing else in common.

It was a hard lesson to learn. And while he’d never admit to anyone—least of all Margie—he still hoped Sean might come back home someday.

I think unrequited love is something that most can identify with; I feel it is fairly safe to say that almost all of us have, at one time or another over the course of our lives, loved or liked or desired someone who would never be interested in us for whatever reason; whether they are out of our league or we aren’t their type or they just don’t feel the same way. It’s awful, it hurts and it sucks, but you really don’t have any choice but to move on and forget about it. I’ve certainly been in that situation, and that sort of rejection really stings; it gets to you on a profoundly painful level. But what if the person you had feelings for knew you had those feelings, didn’t reciprocate, but thought it would be fun to string you along and make you think you had a chance, that it would all work out at some point, just not now–and mocked you behind your back, and so forth. And what if you were a extremely lonely and sheltered (although rich and incredibly smart) and socially backward person, naïvely trusting and expecting everyone to be kind because, well, why would anyone want to be unkind?

(I was recently laughing about my own naivete with my dad. “I always think people are telling me the truth,” I said, “because it never occurs to me that people will lie even when they have no reason to.” I like to think I’m more skeptical now than I was when I was younger, but every once in awhile I get a reminder that people will lie sometimes even when there’s not a reason to do so)

I found myself really liking my character as I wrote more about him, and really absolutely hating his nemesis; he finds out he’s being made a fool of about halfway through the book, and that’s when he launches his scheme for revenge, which results in an accident that may not have been an accident, hence our police detective in the opening. And yes, there’s a lot of sex in the book; it’s an erotic novel, after all, so there needs to be some sex in it. The book did really well and I am also rather proud of it, because I think I did a good job with it.

Save Me a Place

Oddly enough, as I sat in my easy chair the other day watching college football games and letting my body and mind and creativity rest, I had an idea for either a stand alone book or a new series, one way or the other, and it’s something I find interesting enough that I might even consider it. It would be a difficult proposition, to be sure–given the decline in retail sales and everything going to an on-line and electronic model–but I was looking at a map of New Orleans on my iPad because it occurred to me that I didn’t know where Tulane’s not-so-new-anymore on-campus football stadium was; so I pulled up a map to look because I was thinking that was a great line for a Scotty book–I always forget there’s a football stadium in Uptown-so of course I had to go looking for it. The map also brought up businesses in the area and lo and behold, there’s a comic book shop uptown on the lake side of Claiborne and it hit me: no one has ever done a cozy series about a comic book shop and that opened up an entire world of possibilities for me: the main character is an aspiring comic book artist who works in the shop, and of course, you can get into the whole thing about who actually is into comics and the history of comic books and it would give me an excuse to actually learn more about comics and their history and…

You see how this ends up going, don’t you?

I know any number of comics geeks–Alex Segura Jr, author of this year’s brilliant Secret Identity, about the business side of producing comics, is one–and one of my best friends from college owns a comic book shop in central California, or did at some point–and of course my neighbor Michael is also heavily into comics, having gone to Comic Con in San Diego, even. And of course I’d get to make up shit, which is always a huge plus for me. I love making up shit! And of course, it would be fun to write from the point of view of a struggling artist.

I mean, it’s not like I wouldn’t know anything about that…

The Saints played terribly yesterday and logged another “L” in the record book (how bad are the Falcons?) yesterday; I didn’t watch but rather followed on Twitter while I did things around the house. The Saints games sometimes cause me too much stress and then I am emotionally exhausted afterwards–too drained to be of much use, so sometimes I just follow it on Twitter or it’ll be on in the living room while I work in the kitchen. I did get the Costco delivery yesterday, and should probably run some errands at some point today, but it is Work-at-Home Monday and I have work I have to get done. I am behind still from the Bouchercon trip and the ensuing back injury, but am hopeful I will start getting caught up somewhat soon. Emails beget emails, though, and therefore that is a sisyphean task indeed.

We watched the new Star Wars show Andor last night, and I am so happy Deigo Luna’s character is getting an origin story. So far, the only show they’ve done I didn’t buy into completely was The Book of Boba Fett, and am thinking maybe we should give that another try at some point. After those three episodes we moved on to The Serpent Queen and American Gigolo, which I think we’re going to give up on. I love Jon Bernthal, but I’m just not buying this story for the character. It’s an interesting idea–and full props to them for turning it into a sequel series in which Julian actually goes to jail for the murder he was accused of committing in the film, but I’m just not really getting vested into the show, either, no matter how much I want to. The Serpent Queen remains fantastic, and gets better with each episode as Catherine explains to her new maid her philosophy of survival, illustrated with scenes from her past. Samantha Morton is fantastic as the older queen and the actress who plays her as a young woman is also equally good. But it’s a period of history I particularly love, and of course, Catherine de Medici is one of the most fascinatingly complex women to hold power in history. The reality of her life was dramatic enough to drive a series, and they’ve done a pretty decent job of following the actual history, with some adjustments here and there.

Also keeping an eye out for Hurricane Ian, which seems to have Florida’s Gulf Coast clearly in its sights. We are just outside the Cone of Uncertainty, which doesn’t mean we’re safe–there could always be another westward shift to the potential path–but I do concern myself with Florida and friends there. I don’t remember the last time Tampa took a direct hit; I don’t think they have in quite some time, and I can imagine a storm surge into the bay and into the rivers that drain into it would be enormously problematic for the city–as well as for Clearwater and St. Petersburg on the peninsula on the other side of the bay. Stay safe, people.

My podcast interview about Daphne du Maurier, with a particular emphasis on My Cousin Rachel, went really well. It was for my friend Ricky Grove, whom I know from my days in the Horror Writers Association and when I put on World Horror Con back in the day here in New Orleans (he is the author Lisa Morton’s partner–have you read Lisa? You should read Lisa). I can talk about du Maurier all day, and we did continue talking for at least another hour after we stopped recording; I do love to talk books and writing, after all, with the end result that I felt horribly drained when it was over. Ah, yes, the age-old problem of the introvert having to be an extrovert on a day when he usually doesn’t have to do anything of the kind. I retired to my easy chair, but found the draining of my energy to have been far too effective for me to focus clearly on anything. I did do another blog entry about my work–this time my Todd Gregory erotic novel Every Frat Boy Wants It, while starting others about Baton Rouge Bingo and the second Todd Gregory book (Games Frat Boys Play)–but when I tried to work on the book or anything else (including trying to read) I couldn’t get anything done so finally gave up and made myself useful around the house. Hopefully after an eyes-crossing day of data entry and quality assurance on testing logs, I’ll be able to dive back into the Scotty book. I know I am procrastinating with Chapter Three and should probably just stop worrying about it and move on, but that’s just not how my creativity works. Heavy heaving sigh. But that’s okay, the stress of being behind will come in handy as December 1 draws ever more near.

Or so I tell myself.

And on that note, I am heading into the spice mines. Hope you have a marvelous and lovely Monday, Constant Reader, and I will check in with you again tomorrow.