Your Cheatin’ Heart

The other night I picked up an old favorite book I read originally when I was a teenager and realized, as I paged through it, that The Other by Thomas Tryon was probably one of the most influential books I’ve read, as far as my own writing style is concerned. Obviously the series books are different, but the stand-alones owe a lot to The Other, and probably one of the books I will write later this year will owe even more to it. I always forget it when someone tags me on social media to list books that made me who I am or influenced me or something like that, and I never remember The Other.

But looking through those pages, I remembered another book I read around the same time that also had a lot of influence on me as a writer, Larry McMurtry’s The Last Picture Show.

Sometimes Sonny felt like he was the the only human creature in the town. It was a bad feeling, and it usually came on him in the mornings early, when the streets were completely empty, the way they were one Saturday morning in late November. The night before Sonny had played his last game of football for Thalia High School, but it wasn’t thet that made him feel so strange and alone. It was the look of the town.

There was only one car parked on the courthouse square–the night watchman’s old white Nash. A cold norther was singing in off the plains, swirling long ribbons of dust down Main Street, the only street in Thalia with businesses on it. Sonny’s pickup was a ’41 Chevrolet, not at its best on cold mornings. In front of the picture show it coughed out an had to be choked for a while, but then it started again and jerked its way to the red light, blowing out spumes of white exhaust that the wind whipped away.

At the red light he starts to turn south toward the all-night café, but when he looked north to see if anyone was coming he turned that way instead. No one at all was coming but he saw his young friend Billy, headed out. He had his broom and was sweeping right down the idle of the highway into the gusting wind. Billy lived at the poolhall with Sam the Lion, and sweeping was all he really knew how to do. The only trouble was he overdid it. He swept the poolhall in the mornings, the café in the afternoons, and the picture show at night, and always, unless someone specifically told him to stop, he just kept sweeping, down the sidewalk, on through the town sometimes one way nd sometimes another, sweeping happily until someone noticed him and brought him back to the pool hall.

Sonny drove up beside him and honked. Billy quit sweeping at once and got in the pickup. He was a stocky boy, not very smart, but perfectly friendly; picking him up made Sonny feel less lonesome. If Billy was out the poolhall must be open, and when the poolhall was open he was never lonesome. One of the nice things about living in Thalia was that the poolhall often opened by 6:30 or 7 a.m., the reason being that Sam the Lion, who owned it, was a very bad sleeper.

I think it was seventh or eighth grade when I first read The Last Picture Show. I had a battered copy that I got at a flea market (my grandmother’s second husband loved a flea market, and I always went with him whenever possible to look for books), and I hadn’t known the Oscar winning film (which I wouldn’t see uncut for over a decade until VCR’s became a thing and video rentals) was based on a book. There were some differences between the book and the movie–I never understood why they changed the name of the town from Thalia to Anarene–but for the most part, the movie was pretty faithful to the book.

I had meant to reread the book a few years ago–it had been years–but quit when I got to the part where the town’s older teenage boys decided to fuck a calf; I didn’t remember that from early reads and…it yucked me out. Interestingly enough, it never used to bother me, and I am not sure how I feel about that…or if I just went yuck and kept reading, or skimmed and moved on, but as an adult, I appreciate the book all the more, especially since I wound up living in a small rural town and going to a small rural high school several years after that first read. I never asked any of the kids I went to school with if they ever fucked animals–definitely didn’t want to know for sure–but I always did wonder, and there were definitely some kids I thought oh yeah.

But the book, about these kids learning about love and life and sex and growing up in a dying dusty small town whose best days are already past, has always resonated with me. My parents grew up in that same kind of environment in Alabama during the same time period, and there was so much…I don’t know, boredom and poverty in those small rural towns? The book and movie both were billed as the story of the explosive boredom in a small town. And that’s the part that people generally forget when thinking about the past and rural living–how boring it was. You had to find things to entertain yourself as a teenager, and that can lead to all kinds of trouble. McMurtry gave all of his characters humanity, and they were completely believable. There was the preacher’s kid, so uptight with his Christianity and strict life that he eventually takes a little girl with what is generally assumed as molestation in mind, and yet you can’t feel a little bit of sympathy for this poor kid with his horrific cruel parents (spare the rod and all that nonsense) who finally snaps. Everyone thinks he’s a “homo” anyway–which is really funny, because the person who really torments poor Joe Bob Blanton is the football coach, Coach Popper–who, despite being the embodiment of the town’s thoughts on masculinity (toxic, of course) is the town’s real homosexual–and he also accuses the English teacher of it, because he’s kind and gentle, and ruins him.

Very 1950s there, actually, and only emphasized to me how dangerous letting anyone know I was gay could be, and why I was so scared of my true self.

Great book, great movie–but please don’t mention Texasville to me. I hated that book.

Hooked on a Feeling

I can be kind of obtuse when it comes to the date; I have to date documents at work every day but it’s kind of automatic and then one day it hits me: hey, it’s October! Where did 2016 go?

I hate when that happens.

I especially hate my obliviousness because I’d intended to spend the month of October blogging about the horror genre–books, stories, films, etc. So here I am, four days behind but I am game to get going on this. Are you with me, Constant Reader?

I knew you would be.

I wasn’t allowed to watch monster movies when I was a kid because they always gave me the absolute worst nightmares, and I would always wake up screaming and terrified. Yet at the same time, I was drawn to scary movies; I loved being terrified. One of my earliest memories was watching The Birds on television with my parents, and I’ve never been able to see a flock of birds on telephone/power lines ever since without having a chill go up my spine. The first horror novel I read was either The Exorcist or The Other, I’m not sure which; but they were two of the popular books everyone was reading when I was in junior high school (the crucifix masturbation scene in The Exorcist  was discussed in great detail). I never much care for The Exorcist, to be honest, and even when I finally was able to rent the film years later and watch it for the first time, it was more funny to me than anything else; almost like it was trying too hard to be scary and obscene–which is what I also felt about the novel. (I thought about rereading the novel recently, since I am really enjoying the new TV show based on it; but I’ve read other works by Blatty and not cared for them either; plus, I think I’ve read somewhere recently that he’s a homophobe, and yes, I know one should try to separate the art from the artist, but I’m just not that evolved, okay? Sue me.)

Anyway, I digress.

The horror genre is similar to the crime genre in that there are a number of sub-genres contained under the umbrella term of horror; and not all horror is necessarily scary. I am not well-read enough in the genre to even try to define any of these subgenres, frankly; I’m not especially well-versed on horror films or television programs, either. I am a casual fan; when it is done well, I greatly enjoy it–but I am hardly an expert in the field. I know good writing when I see it, though–whether it’s literary or crime or horror or fantasy or romance.

I once said on a panel somewhere–I don’t remember where–that crime and horror fiction are the flip sides of the same coin; the difference being in crime fiction the monsters are human. It was a great sound-byte, and I used a variation of it in the introduction to the anthology I co-edited with J. M. Redmann, Night Shadows, where I said the two genres were both concerned with death. After all, Freddy Kruger is just a supernatural serial killer, right? And while I’ve not read any of the Thomas Harris books (I know, I know, shame on me), the film The Silence of the Lambs is both a crime film as well as horror.

Stephen King, of course, is my writing god. I discovered him when I was a sophomore in high school, and a friend was reading the paperback of Carrie. I’d never heard of either the author or the book, but I picked it up idly and started reading it–and couldn’t put it down. She graciously let me borrow it, and I didn’t put it down until I’d finished reading it that night. I’d never read anything like it before–and I became an immediate fan. It wasn’t until The Stand, several years later, that I started buying King in hardcover; but I have done so ever since (at least, the ones that were published in hardcover; some, like his Hard Case Crime novels The Colorado Kid and Joyland were paperback originals only).

But my real favorites are, and always have been, ghost stories. Barbara Michaels wrote some excellent ones, including Ammie Come Home, The Crying Child, House of Many Shadows, and Be Buried in the Rain, among many others.

And of course, Shirley Jackson and Daphne du Maurier wrote some brilliant work.

I do wish I had more time to read–so many brilliant writers and so many brilliant books out there to read.

So, I intend to spend this entire month blogging about horror. Next time, Dark Shadows.

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