Tuesday, and somehow we made it through Monday. It was definitely a weird-energy Monday, that’s for sure. I slept super-well Sunday night (or at least better than I had been_ and so wasn’t too terribly tired when I got off work last night. I had to pick up a prescription after work, and since I had to go to Mid-city I decided to get Five Guys as a dinner treat. It had been a hot minute, and was quite lovely. But I was hardly in the mood once I got home and had my treat–not to mention the great pleasure of running around in Midcity during a heat advisory, but here we are. I did putz around a bit in my journal, and I did work on Chapter Three, but other than that I wasn’t much in the mood for doing a whole lot when I got home from the office yesterday.
But the Five Guys was marvelous. It was hot as Satan’s taint out, and it was rush hour so there was ridiculous traffic, and I had to take I-10 and there were people doing stupid things behind the wheel and not understanding how highways work or when you can turn right on red and the usual annoyances and terrors standard for driving around this city, but I got home safely and in one piece and it was lovely. I was most pleased that I made the effort, and it was really such a simple pleasure. I so often deny myself these little joys in life because of the effort involved in obtaining them. It really is astonishing how little I want to leave the house once I am in it, you know. Today I have to pick up the mail and stop at the grocery store for very little; it’s going to be an odd ten days. I imagine I’ll enjoy the silence and the “I can do whatever I want whenever I want”–not that I don’t, but there’s always that little sense of just being alone with yourself that is kind of nice every once in a while. (It also serves to remind me how much I miss him when he isn’t here, and how I take him for granted.) I’ll get bored with being by myself at some point, and will tire of keeping myself occupied and entertained. But…there’s always something to read. I can always use the time to write. I can organize. I can ruthlessly purge the books again. I can reflect and try to get to know myself better–or at least delve into the delusions I maintain for the sake of my sanity and to keep myself going.
I read a couple of short stories over the weekend that I forgot to mention, both from the Alfred Hitchcock volume My Favories in Suspense. One was infinitely better than the other; I didn’t really like the “Sentence of Death” story by Thomas Walsh even remotely near as much as I enjoyed Dorothy Salisbury Davis’ nasty little story “Spring Fever.” The former was a mistaken identification case, open and shut until an unsure eyewitness sees the man she saw commit the murder. It was told in a style I don’t like–very little dialogue, and a lot of “he did this and then he did that and this irritated him and that made him do this” type of telling, which surprised me that, frankly, read like a synopsis of a longer piece got published as a short story. There were so many better ways to tell that story, I thought; and every last one of them better than the one Walsh chose. I mean, it was fine…but it could have been so much better; I think the editor brain took over while I was reading it, which is rarely if ever a good sign when reading for pleasure. On the other hand, Davis’ story, deceptively simple and easily told, was multi-layered and said so much about so many things in the short pages that I was most impressed. I think I’ve only read one other story by Davis, in that Sarah Weinman anthology a few years (I don’t want to know how many, actually) back. I know Davis was one of the great twentieth century women crime writers who proliferated after the war–along with giants whose novels I have read like Margaret Millar, Charlotte Armstrong, and Dorothy B. Hughes, and I also know she was particularly revered by Sara Paretsky–I think she may have helped with the founding of Sisters in Crime? I have some of Davis’ novels, both in print and in ebook form, here, and some day I really need to read more of her works.
Yesterday was an off-day, too, in which nothing particular was wrong or haywire or miserable, but the energy felt off all day which made the little treat of Five Guys seem that much better. Paul and I then watched a few more episodes of Gotham Knights, which is surprisingly involving and better than I was expecting; it’s better than the early seasons of Titans (I still haven’t watched the final season–something else I can do whilst Paul is away), as well as the firsts seasons of Smallville.
Last night’s sleep was epic. I didn’t wake up once last night, until five (I wake up at five every morning and go back to sleep); the kind of sleep that you never want to get up from, where you feel so relaxed that the bed is so comfortable that you don’t want to get up, ever. I feel better rested this morning than I have in quite some time, although not entirely or completely awake yet. My coffee is marvelous this morning, and the house feels cool this morning. Either the temperature dropped dramatically over night, or it rained–which would have helped with the sleep. I didn’t write very much yesterday, partly because of that weird/off/low energy thing yesterday had going for it, but it’s okay, I think. Sometimes it’s not possible or necessary to write every day–I’ve never stuck to that rule that a writer had to write every day else they are not a writer; and for that matter, purists, I at least write this every day, even if I personally don’t count it, it is writing–if not the kind I count. (It still blows my mind that I’ve been keeping this since December 2004; soon enough this blog will be twenty years old. Jesus, I am old.
And on that note, I am heading into the spice mines. Have a lovely Tuesday, Constant Reader, and I will be back tomorrow.
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